Wednesday, January 13, 2010

I wish heaven had a telephone...

I'd call tonight.

I'd just like to make sure that grandpa is ready and looking his best. I'd just like to tell him that his sweetheart is coming to see him soon.

We got the news today that my grandmother has a few months, at the most, to spend with us here in this life. Alzheimer's disease has taken it's toll. It's done just about as much damage as it can do to her here. But, Alzheimer's disease cannot follow her into heaven...for there's no pain or sorrow there.

As all the preparations are made, and Hospice begins to prepare to help us with this journey, I can't help but find comfort in the words my grandmother spoke today as my mom and aunt was bathing her and getting her dressed to eat dinner. She softly spoke, 'It won't be long, and I won't have to hurt like this anymore, and I won't have to be like this. I'll be okay.'

And, she will be okay...grandpa's waiting...probably with a smile on his face.


If I don't visit your blogs or post as often as normal, it's because I will be doing much traveling from Louisiana to Texas in the next several weeks. I don't want my mother to have to face all this without me being beside her as much as possible. I want to be there with her, and I want to spend as much more time as I can with my grandmother. Oh, how I miss not living just a couple of blocks from her right now!

9 comments:

Parsley said...

My grandma had the big A too. It was awful but God was good and took her before she had to go to a nursing home.

I pray the transition to hospice is a peaceful one for her and God gives her a moment of clarity as she looks into the faces of her loving family.

When I can muster up the mental strength, I'd like to share a poem I wrote for my grans funeral. I think it is a help...it was for us.

Parsley said...

I posted my poem for you.

http://seasonsofmymind.blogspot.com/2010/01/poem-on-loss-and-alzheimers.html

Carol Kennon said...

Thanks, Parsley...I'll go read it.

Carol Kennon said...

For some reason, I cannot post a comment on your page, Parsley. Just wanted to tell you THANKS! You said it so well.

Ms.grammalamma said...

Thank you Carol, I too am facing this terrible fate head on with my husband of 37 years. Today I will be also calling on Hospice's help. Yesterday I made the dredded call to put him in a home unless God blesses him and takes him home first. I can hardly bare taking him from home eventhough it is only four blocks from me. It will break his heart. My prayers are with all who have to suffer this battle and to the loved ones who feel so terribly helpless as they watch their loved one fade away taking a piece of them day by day. Blessings to your family Carol.

Miller Racing Family said...

Bless your heart we will keep you and your family in our prayers. I had a grandpa with Alzheimer's so I know what you are going through.
Bless you all.

Carol Kennon said...

Ms. grammalamma...I cannot make comments on anyones page until my brother n law comes by tomorrow and fixes a glitch on my computer, so hopefully you'll see my comment here. Thanks, and my prayers are with you!!! I mean that. It's a horrible disease that makes strangers out of family. I had no clue until lately just how dreadful it was and what people go through with their family members who have it. That blank look when they see you is what gets you the most.

Tanya...I played your baby name game but haven't been able to comment on anyones page with this glitch. But I love the name you picked out...my guess was Lila Kate.

Parsley said...

I'm confused why you can't post a comment. Please try again if you don't mind and let's see if it get's fixed. I have moderation on posts older than one day.

Carol Kennon said...

It's not your blog, Parsley...it's a glitch in my computer that my brother-n-law is coming to fix tomorrow. Something to do with third party moderations or something. Anyway it's on my end not yours. It's an easy fix he says, so we'll see.